2013

Salam...

It's been almost a year since my previous post. Lots have been happened, plenty of ups and downs, heartbroken and tears, laughs and joys...

In the end what matters most is how best we do to pick ourself up again. Yes honey, you are right again.

Always, the challenge is there, laying in the future. What step to take, is that the right decision, what in it for me..

The big question, does it matters? Why must we look for what's in for us? Aren't that makes us selfish? Thinking what benefits we can get? Couldn't it only be as a sadaqah? Our contribution to somebody? Just a plain gift? For most of the time, the hard truth is people always seek for their own advantages. Very few people really 'giving' to others.

How about if we think of it this way, finding whats in it for us, that actually what motivate us to try harder, to work harder, and isn't that what we need to achieve success? When there is something to gain, there will be efforts given.

Sometimes, looking for an advantages could be a positive thing. But most of the time when it became the tools for those with defective motive, it became destructive. Crushing people in order to get something. Using a group of people to achieve something, and worst, left them when they are no longer needed.. In malay we said, "habis madu sepah dibuang".

Nonetheless, sometimes things need to be reconsidered not just twice, perhaps best by thousands. Keeping an open mind helps and being positive would be beneficial. And in the end, our final decision would mirror our true self. Are we indecisive or confident, are we a traitor or a loyal, are we honest and kind, or bitter and a poser.

And I hope from now on, I would be very consistent in keeping my head high, to always consider how I feel first before deciding something, to be in check with reality when chaos lurking in the corner. So that whatever come what may, I will be standing still.

Let us pray together, in silence, may we get all the strength to overcome the burden along the path of life, to be always first noticing the joy in every challenges we might face, and always found the peace in our heart no matter what.

The end.