Syawal Tahun Ini..

"Sayu... hati ini makin sayu..

Rindu... terkenangkan desa permai 

Wajah ayah bonda bermain di mata 

Mengajak ku pulang ke desa 

Di hari bahagia hari raya 

Lama kutunggu 

Bertemu di pagi mulia 

Namun tidak kesampaian 

Airmata jatuh berlinangan 

Kuingin berulang manisnya bersama 

Menyambut hari bahagia 

Jarak memisahkan rindu pertemuan 

Bilakah hasrat jadi nyata 

Duhai ayah bonda ampunkan anakanda 

Tak dapat beraya bersama 

Jauh dari mata dekat dalam jiwa 

Teguh kasihku tidak berubah"

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Semoga Allah memberi rezeki dan pahala berlipat ganda buat mereka yang merinduiku kerana kesabaran dalam meredhai perjuanganku di jalanNya, mendidik generasi akhir zaman, mempertahan sebuah syurga dunia, demi sebuah syurga yang abadi..

Happy Birthday To Dana!

Hello everyone!

Officially today my dearest daughter is TWO years old! Phew.. How fast time flies. Two years ago I was still on bed-rest with tubes and wires connected at St. Luc Clinique-Universitaires, after a almost an hour operation to deliver my beautiful daughter.

Yes, I took selective cesarean for my second child, after I am confirmed to have a small pelvic which would cause high risk for the baby and me if I was to deliver normally. So we opted for cesarean.

Plenty things has happened since the past two years darling. So let me just write here what milestone you had achieved since...

1. You master the art of delivering speech as long as 10 words per sentence.

2. You know how to recite 'Bismillah hirrahmann nirrahim'

3. You like to offer help to abang umair, and the rest of the family.

4. You know how to use the situation to benefit you. (Happened when abang umair was scolded as a result of doing something naughty, you will promote your good side.. Haha funny dear we know the trick. But thats still cute!)

5. You learn to play educative games in ipad before you were two years old! Whereas abang umair learn ipad only after he was three years old!

6. You know mummy is a girl, daddy is a boy, abang umair is a boy, nenek is a girl, atok is a boy, titi is a girl, uncle is a boy...

7. You can be very choosy, as selective by saying 'A' is not so best, 'B' is the best..

8. I can always trust you to put things back to its original place. (With directive and sweet-talking orders of course)

9. You know the beat of 'Twinkle twinkle little stars' and 'Happy Birthday To You'

10. Now you are in the middle of practising doa makan..

Am so proud of you dear. We all did..

May you become the most adorable girl in the family, with big heart and good humour, and always kind and just in every way you choose. May Allah Bless you life my dear...

2013

Salam...

It's been almost a year since my previous post. Lots have been happened, plenty of ups and downs, heartbroken and tears, laughs and joys...

In the end what matters most is how best we do to pick ourself up again. Yes honey, you are right again.

Always, the challenge is there, laying in the future. What step to take, is that the right decision, what in it for me..

The big question, does it matters? Why must we look for what's in for us? Aren't that makes us selfish? Thinking what benefits we can get? Couldn't it only be as a sadaqah? Our contribution to somebody? Just a plain gift? For most of the time, the hard truth is people always seek for their own advantages. Very few people really 'giving' to others.

How about if we think of it this way, finding whats in it for us, that actually what motivate us to try harder, to work harder, and isn't that what we need to achieve success? When there is something to gain, there will be efforts given.

Sometimes, looking for an advantages could be a positive thing. But most of the time when it became the tools for those with defective motive, it became destructive. Crushing people in order to get something. Using a group of people to achieve something, and worst, left them when they are no longer needed.. In malay we said, "habis madu sepah dibuang".

Nonetheless, sometimes things need to be reconsidered not just twice, perhaps best by thousands. Keeping an open mind helps and being positive would be beneficial. And in the end, our final decision would mirror our true self. Are we indecisive or confident, are we a traitor or a loyal, are we honest and kind, or bitter and a poser.

And I hope from now on, I would be very consistent in keeping my head high, to always consider how I feel first before deciding something, to be in check with reality when chaos lurking in the corner. So that whatever come what may, I will be standing still.

Let us pray together, in silence, may we get all the strength to overcome the burden along the path of life, to be always first noticing the joy in every challenges we might face, and always found the peace in our heart no matter what.

The end.