Thursday, May 15, 2008

Chapter 2 : Daddy-to-be

Tomorrow, my dear husband will left me again, to Korea! Wahh... How I wished I could join him abroad, even though he will be there for only 10 days. Tomorrow, my sister will stay with me while I am 'single'. Hmmm... so many things to do, so many jobs to be done.

For the last couple of days, I was having mild fever, my husband brought it from Sabah. Thankfully, it's not that bad, but when all the symptoms were combined together, the morning sickness, the mild nausea, the bloated feeling, it makes me suffered somehow... It's not that easy, really, to be a mommy...

Right now, I am here in my office. I still have that nausea feeling, and I do realize, it wont be over just like that. But, soon enough, it will subside...

My dear daddy-to-be... He shall be at Korea... I long to be there too... I wonder, when I could join him? huhuhuhuhuhu...

I am going to miss you!!!! So very very the much much more!!!

(pardon my English)

Thursday, May 8, 2008

Chapter 1 : My Little Angel

I was so angry this morning. My cat, my precious little kitten, she jumped on me when I was trying to have a nice cup of Milo. What would you think happened next? I drop that cup of Milo, and it had smeared my sofa, the floor and worse, my dress! What a mess! I put Lulu outside, on my balcony, and I wiped the stains. It was all over the floor. At the first place, I have a happy 45 minutes left to drive to office, but after that incident, I only have 20 minutes left!

Abang is not home, he left me yesterday morning. He was attending this pre-posting courses since the last 2 months. And this week, he have to attend a study visit to Sabah. Sabah is my hometown...which adds to my misery and made me homesick, somehow... Well, it's been 8 months since the last time I was with them. And now, I have no one to talk to when I was home. Lulu? My precious kitten? All that she know is biting and scratching and making me jumped.. The idea to have a very nice soft talking and chatting? Maybe not now... She's too playful... Sometimes it's really irritates me. What more I can say, she's too young to understand she have to respect her master.

Right now, I am at my office, thinking about that incident this morning. Thank God, I do have a big reason to stay measurable calm, and remain positive all the way noon.

So do happen yesterday, I feft sick and I call offduty to my office. I managed myself to drive all my way to Klinik Kesihatan Putrajaya after resting at home for a while. I decided to do a maternal check-up. And I was so proud yesterday when I braved myself to undergo blood sampling test. I was scared to death to needles, as it was very painful. The nurses injected me at three different area on my armsas they found that it was hard to locate my veins. Actually, I was not sure about that...

I did request an ultrasound scan, as I am not really sure when was my last menstrual period. I was totally excited when the doctor mentioned that she did see the fetal heart is beating and the baby is moving. The baby is now 9 weeks and 4 days old! Can't wait to watch the baby grows... I was quite tired and I can't see it clearly. But I believe I do saw what the doctor said is the baby's heart. It is pumping, and I know I saw it yesterday. To my relief, the doctor scheduled another ultrasound san in a month to confirmed the due date.

I went home, smiling and when I told Shah, my Abang, my beloved husband, and Alhamdulillah... we can only pray for the best of the baby and us. He can't wait to watch our baby through the ultra-sound scan next month.

I put a very high hope that this pregnancy will survive, as we already lost 2 pregnancies before. And that's really puts a smile on my face, even though Lulu is still scratching and biting, and my husband has not yet home... he will be home this weekend. Yeay!

Do wish the best for us. Dear God, give us strength to move on, and relive our live happily as ever... amen.